Imagine watching an unsettling video and not being able to press the stop button or the pause button. That is what bipolar disorder feels like. You are watching yourself do things and counteract in things that you don't have any control over or wouldn't normally or want to partake in. It's like you lose control over yourself and don't have the power to stop what is happening even though you know that you should and …showed first 75 words of 1361 total…

…showed last 75 words of 1361 total…I now have it under control. To tell you the truth, I am fortunate that I have not died from this illness, fortunate in having received the best medical care available, and fortunate in having the friends, family and support that I do. It's like I always say, "Everything happens for a reason, and even if it doesn't make any sense or is painful, whatever doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger in the end."